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“How do you do that?!”
“It’s easy,” she
said. “You just move your ear
muscles.”
There was a lot of
discussion about this, mostly variations on “We have ear muscles?!”
Then one of my cousins
said, “You mean, like this?” and the two of them started flapping back and
forth at each other across the table.
Ear wiggling turns out to
be a very useful skill for multi-generational family entertainment.
But not particularly
useful in most other contexts.
My inflexible ears are a
limitation I can easily accept. My general lack of
physical coordination, on the other hand, is something I find really
frustrating.
In addition to bumping into furniture and doorways, I do things like spilling entire beverages on myself while lunching with friends. (For the record, that only happened once, but it was pretty dramatic.)
In addition to bumping into furniture and doorways, I do things like spilling entire beverages on myself while lunching with friends. (For the record, that only happened once, but it was pretty dramatic.)
Extreme Strolling is a
challenging workout for me; I am never going to master the latest
Kickboxing-Bellydance Fusion DVD.
That doesn’t mean I
can’t or shouldn’t exercise. I
just need to be careful in the types of exercise I choose to do: Step aerobics? Sure. High-speed choreography jumping on, off, or over the
step? Surely not.
By accepting this
limitation, I still achieve my goal of staying reasonably healthy and fit. If I denied it, I’d risk frustration
and even injury.
But there are other parts of myself that are even harder to accept.
I’m quite moody, and it can take a lot of energy to maintain my unflappable teaching persona.
I’m quite moody, and it can take a lot of energy to maintain my unflappable teaching persona.
My usual coping strategy is
to hold it together at work and then come home and take it out on my
husband. Fortunately he’s far too
much of a gentleman to testify against me, or I’d probably lose my mindfulness blogger license!
Learning to accept this has been quite challenging.
But I want to be very clear. I don’t mean that it’s acceptable to snap at my husband when I’m stressed.
But I want to be very clear. I don’t mean that it’s acceptable to snap at my husband when I’m stressed.
What I need to accept is the fact that I snap at my husband
when I’m stressed… even though this goes against my image of myself as a “nice
person” who would never do such a thing.
As Nikolaj and Didde Flor Rotne put it,
Acceptance is a middle position between denial on the one hand and acting out on the other hand. We accept the thoughts, feelings, and bodily sensations that are there. We try to accept ourselves and other people as the people we are, but we don’t accept the inappropriate behavior of ourselves or others... We can practice setting limits in a way that doesn’t invalidate the person but just focuses on what actions are appropriate or inappropriate.
If "acceptance" is a
difficult word to work with, try substituting “acknowledgment.”
We can acknowledge our imperfections,
and we can acknowledge that a situation is challenging. We don’t have to like it, but by
recognizing it for what it is, we have a much better chance to come up with a
solution.
It can make a big
difference to say something to your spouse like “I’m exhausted and frustrated
and trying not to take it out on you.
I need to be by myself for a few minutes.”
In a work context, it
might not to appropriate to say that.
But you could excuse yourself by saying you need to use the
restroom. After all, it’s
true. You need to rest.
Then, when you’re feeling
calmer, you can figure out what’s going on:
- Maybe you’re feeling irritable because you haven’t eaten anything all day.
- Maybe you don’t see eye-to-eye with one of your colleagues.
- Maybe there’s a serious discipline problem at your school that isn’t being handled well by the administration.
- Maybe you’re overwhelmed by responsibilities at work and at home, and you’re not sure how to get help.
There are all kinds of
reasons for feeling exhausted and frustrated, and they require very different
responses. What doesn’t help is
trying to deny there’s a problem.
By accepting things as
they are, and by accepting myself as I am, I can calmly take a step in the
right direction… without tripping over my own feet.
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